you stole my heart

Sunday, November 13, 2005

5pm knocked off from CT's house at Jurong West. if i had known the rest would be late, Naddy Nad Nad and I would have stayed longer at tt someone's house. and I wouldn't get a sudden blow from the msg for no reason. in fact ive already informed tt someone on tuesday tt saturday and sunday will be my raya visitings in the west and east areas with the coursemates. and again the same msg was sent out yesterday morning tt i will be going to the house even if tt someone will not be at home. furthermore i had plans in the afternoon, thus the reason i went earlier and left in a hurry. in fact my purpose was to visit the elders and i was there for 45mins to an hour. i came down with a really sincere heart after much thinking. but things just had to happen. *siiiggghhhh*. Naddy Nad Nad was already kind enough to accompany me there and we really had to make a move at 3.30pm when we were supposed to be at CT house by tt time. if we had no other plans, we would have stayed a little while longer for sure.

2am sharp i reached home from raya visits in the west and north areas. chaotic, hectic and full stomach. thank gdness we hitched a ride. guess this will be the 1st and the last raya as a group; 16 of us (11 ladies + 5 guys) and managed to cover 9 houses. doubt i will be able to make it this afternoon to cover the east areas as im tooooo tired, not in the mood and im wondering as to whom will send me home after the outing. im toooo upset to sleep though im fucking sleepy. im soooo affected by whatever tt had happened. i really wish i will lose my memory. yessss.. im wishing for tt so as to lead a brand new life and forget those tt had left scars on me.

let me have a smoke 1st to calm me down.

:: ffy 03:20am ::