you stole my heart

Sunday, August 21, 2005

welcome me back with a warm hug..i need tt badly..

On the bright side
its suppose to be a HAPPY starting since ive regained the use of the internet,which explained my disappearance; am using the wireless netwk and truly addicted to the laptop which ive bought last week..the 2mths pay was a well deserved reward for myself..shopping spree with the bf right after the day we got our pay..paid bills, shopped for his stuffs, mom's and bro's. gave dad bux for his necessities as well..and tadaaa,half of the pay is gone. tQ very much.

On the other hand
Its been 3yrs 9mths we have been together; i HEART you even if I have to cross the deep ocean for you.

but how ironic it is tt im lost for words now and its depressing especially when im unsure what the future has in store for us..the challenges ive faced and am still facing are way tooooo much for me to handle. i kept asking myself where i had gone wrong all this while to be misjudged. was I a BITCH as what U (they) had claimed?? in what ways if U can enlighten me?? pls do ur homework before making any accusation. what lies beneath is not superficial. so i URGE U to come up and ask me in clearing the misunderstanding cos ive traded my HEART, PRIDE, HAPPINESS, and TRUST just for his love. tts how much i LOVE him. im DAMN saddened by the fact tt im being called names when my dad painstakingly had to come up with my name; SUFFY. why am i always dragged into their domestic issues? is it tt difficult to accept me into the family potrait? where lies my mistakes? what in the name of GOD do i deserve all this?

i have toooo many questions. pls do provide me with the answers.
as for now, i shall have a fag before hitting the sack.

i MISS him..

:: ffy 3:19am ::