you stole my heart

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

Listening tO:A shoulder tO cry On - Tommy Page

wasn't in a gOod state and mind tO gO fOr lessOns tOday.. stayed hm and prepared spaghetti fOr mUm, sinCe she had asked me tO. im in a sensitive mOde tOday. jUst like the sOothing sOng im listening nOw, all i really need is a shOulder tO cry On. life's nvr been betta with the gerls around tO keep me mOving On.. hOw mUch i lUve them, wOrds can nvr ever describe hOw i feel fOr them.

it really hUrts tO lOve and knOw tt sOmeOne fOr sO lOng and be hUrt in retUrn when he washed Our dirty linen in pUbliC, whiCh i dOnt. y be Unfair tO my feelings? ive dOne everything i can, im washing my hands Off frOm this and jUst let fate deCide On us.. by me being the fate time and again, it wOnt be right. 23 mths tOgether, been thrU thiCk and thin, Ups and dOwns, yet this rship dOesnt seem tO wOrk Out. it's hanging lOosely and ive been trying tO tighten it with all my might. fOnd and sad memOries keep hOlding me baCk frOm walking away time and again..bUt i'll be glad if he fOund sOmeOne better whO he can live with..his happiness is my happiness tOO.

did a lOad Of thinking lately..my mind's been tOO OccUpied with things at hOme, sChOOl and life till there's nOt even a spaCe fOr myself. till nOw,where shOuld i hide myself and pUt my faCe whenever i meet his family? it's like im de Only One in the wrOng. thOugh things happen, i pretended tt it never did OcCUr. changed myself fOr the better yet what i did dOesnt seem tO satisfy the needs Of this rship. my patienCe and tears are rUnning lOw bUt i keep mOving every steps fOrward hOping fOr the better. sChOOl and hOme jUst tied me dOwn and my emOtiOns are all mixed Up.. hOw i wish tings happen and let me lOse my memOry..jUst as well. at least i cOuld then start afresh whiCh i dOubt i can adapt tO..fOr thOse memOries i shall never fOrget.

:: ffy 3:15pm ::