you stole my heart

Wednesday, September 03, 2003

welcOme me baCk... been away fOr lOng, was tied dOwn with sChOol. bUt i dO admit tt this sem ive been very slaCked than thOse previOus sems. gOtta bUck Up sOOn. thanx a lOt fOr yOur lOvely and heart warming tags in my bOard, greatly appreCiate tt. term test was dOne and Over with, nOw am having the term break. will be baCk in sCh sOOn, next mOn. jUz a shOrt break will dO me gOOd. went HRC last sat tO lOosen Up after slOgging myself fOr the papers. my bUtts and legs cOuldnt resist thOse sOngs and bOOgied like as if I Own de plC. was an enjOyable wkend bUt it was shOrt-lived.

having a terrible depressiOn nOw and stOmach pain been killing me fOr past few days. what is life w/O prOblems bUt mine are tOO heart wrenching and endless. its been a daily thingey and I jUst cOuldn't dO anyting tO cease all these. im sO lifeless nOw and waiting fOr the right time tO slOwly perish frOm these ppl's sights and thOughts. i'd rather gO than hurt their feelings with my attitUde thOUgh it is hard tO leave. i just dOnt nOe where my life and future lies nOw. living is meaningless just tO be hUrt time and again. wOnder where and hOw ive gOt all de patience in the wOrld tO bear these.

whO and where shld i seek sOlitUde tO, i myself aint sUre. this isn't the 1st time tt it happened. cOuntless, even my fingers and tOes aren't enOugh tO determine it. all i cld dO is tO sit in a cOrner, whining and wailing nOn-stOp, blaming myself for all these tt had happened. what gOes rOund cOmes rOund. i cld becOme insane 1 day when it dOesn't stOp. it had always been me whO initiated the dispUtes, nvr been tt sOmebOdy. im always the bad gerl in everyOne's eyes. y its always been me, me n me? it takes 2 hands tO clap and ive been the Only 1 whO did the thinking. im left alOne tO fend fOr myself when it happened.. ppl dO chnge. its jUst mere wOrds tt U shOwered me. thx fOr everyting. i'll still be MISS INDEPENDENT, searching the answers tt ive been lOOking fOr all this while.

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