you stole my heart

Thursday, June 05, 2003

FUCCKK IT LAARR.

damn it. my mood for the day has just been spoilt by this twosome ( shall not mention names in here ). just give me a break will u ppl? my heart simply ached and resulting in me having blardy chest pains. shld i be contented for what i have now? or am i greedy for more? i shld thank De Almighty and my lovely mum for letting me step into this beautiful world and tolerate this twosome. such a contradiction. im not a perfectionist but i do hope for a lil perfection of my life or shld i rather say tt i need beautiful ppl to revolve in my life? so tt my mind can be at ease for not having to bear with all de craps and shits, pains and sorrows tt i have to live with. i wonder why assumptions have to ever exist. it just kills me like a sharp knife tt pierced thru my fragile heart.

im grateful De Almighty gave me all the senses tt some handicapped do not have. but sadly to say this is how i truly feel :

I have a heart but every beat of pain and sorrow dey can nvr feel it like i do
I have ears but all i hear are negativities
I have nose but i can nvr smell beatitude for a chnge
I have tongue but bitterness is all i taste
I have mouth but every words spoken are being wronged
I have eyes but the tear drops can nvr expressed how i feel
I have feelings but dey nvr spare a thought for it and..
I have my sense of touch which ive longed for warmth now and forever.

*Bless Me*

see. i told ya. what more i can ask for yet these some ppl are pushing me to a corner. der's a limit to everyone's patience but mine is already to the max. i ever thought of consulting a psychiatrist but dont get me wronged. im not having some mentall illnesses. i just cldnt take it no more and depression been invading, taking hold of me. i just wanna scream out loud but held back the voice in me.

had 6 oreo cookies dunked in a cup of HL milk for brunch while reading Steel's bk. refrain, refrain, refrain. shall restrain myself from eating too much cos i think im getting fatter. im too lazy for an exercise so the only wat out is to cut down the intake of food.

:: ffy 2:31pm ::